How?

Oh, this whole discernment thing is tough. I have to admit, I really don't know how to even tell when, or even if, the Holy Spirit is prompting me to do something. With my college decision, I could feel it down to my core. I know I'm in the right place here, and that I'm supposed to be a Bible study leader through FOCUS. That much I've discerned.

But what about everyday things? Whether it's okay to like a certain guy (yes, I know, again with the guys)... Or whether I should approach certain friends about issues I want to help them with over the summer.

There are so many little decisions every day in my life, and I know that most of the time I just decide without thinking or praying about it. Certain things should be habit, right, like brushing my teeth or going to class? Should I try to do those things with a more prayerful approach, even if they seem mundane?

And I'm trying to discern my vocation, since God should be my priority. The litany of humility keeps bringing me back to a higher calling, of being okay if nothing happens with a certain situation... Which kind of confuses me, but oh well.

But summer is here, and I guess it's okay to walk away from my school issues for a while and focus on home. My family, my friends here, my job prospects. Why do I cling so tightly to something I can do very little about from a distance? And something I should not worry about because if it's meant to happen, it will happen.

"Blessed be the Lord day by day, God, our salvation, who carries us."
-Psalm 68:20