A few thoughts...

"Ain't no mountain high enough, ain't no valley low enough, ain't no river wide enough to keep me from gettin' to you..."

So the Lord says to each of us.

Lately I've fallen short in my prayer life, which is sad, because this is my favorite part of the Church year! But ever since I stopped doing my picture project, I've kind of... forgotten... about going through the readings every day. And reading them is so helpful!

But the past is the past.

Some things are so hard to move past, however.

See, there's this guy.

(I wonder how many conversations include that phrase)

And, like most girls, I became so emotionally involved with having a crush on him that I forgot about his dignity. That he probably didn't want anything beyond friendship with me, and that God's will for him probably doesn't include a relationship with me. But I kept hoping, kept planning, kept analyzing everything he did. Why do girls do this? Why do I do this?

I've asked myself that so many times, even while I do these silly things. Is it that I want attention, or the status of being in a relationship, or do I legitimately have the desire to share myself with someone else and am just going about it in the wrong way?

I am single, and my life is pretty good. I lead a Bible study with three amazing girls, all of whom inspire me to be a more powerful witness to my faith. I'm doing pretty well in school (except in organic chemistry, which I just do not seem to understand), and have been blessed with few financial burdens because of scholarships. I have improved my health since being in college out of my own desire to take care of what God gave to me. My family has a strong faith, and I have an amazing group of friends here at school. What do I have to complain about?

Yes, I have never been in a relationship, and a guy has never truly told me he liked me. But do I really need that to be happy? I shouldn't. My relationship with the Lord should be the most important thing that guides my entire life. Only then will I have true joy, and be able to discern what He has in store for me.

I'm sure I sound like a broken record already, but I know it all comes back to trust. And I read in a book that God does not want blind trust from us... He wants us to know Him, to trust Him because we believe, to our very core, that his Truth and his love for us can conquer anything we will come up against.

I don't really have a picture for today. I just thought I'd throw this out there at the Internet void.